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Life and Venting... [May. 8th, 2007|06:05 pm]

So....Summer classes started this week and mine didn't start out on a good note....

I got to class 1/2 hour late thinking it started @ 11:30..but it started at 11 and then I found out that my lab was cancelled, so I had to drive to Okeechobee for my new lab.

So, I went to my lab class today hoping that something good was gonna come out of all of this....and it did...my teacher is really nice andi hear he's easy...and we're not gonna be doing the lab for 2 1/2 hours...it's different every day lol. So I'm happy. Even though the drive sucks....it def. a change of scenary ( sp?)!

So...I guess the summer I have ha dso far is ok...except I have been missing Justin latley and quite frankly its making me mad lol. I was fine, and now all of a sudden things just bother me. I guess the fact that I am putting thoughts into my head that him and this girl Andrea kinda like eachother, and if they did end up going out..she seems nice, when I met her, and I wish them the best. But I donno that for a fact...but whatever! Even though I always wish justin would stick with his words about not wanting a girlfriend until he gets outta college..haha...I really don't see that happening for some reason. And just that like Erika and everyone is such better friends wit him and I feel that we could be...but I just get this feeling that he doens't really wanna put too much effort into it. And then when I get into these moods...I just try to think of other thoughts..like how I have micro to worry about and Im going off to FSU to meet new people and start my own life, and even though he's going to be there which I kinda feel like keeps me back from starting all new b/c he's there, but oh well...Im hoping that will help us really make a real friendship. and I donno when I had a bad day yesterday I wanted to call him, which was actually kinda weird lol, and have him tell me all of his logical thoughts and make me feel better lol. But I wouldn't call him b/c I didn't wanna hear him and I just had this feeling that he would just listen and tell me that he hopes it goes better and he thinks it will. Which is great...but it used to be different. But I mean...can I blame him...or me...no. But I just wish we could be good friends...I called him today just to say hi b/c I try to make a effort at being friends and we talked some and it was good, and I told him to call me sometime if he ever wanted to hang out and he said ok....but honestly....I don't see him calling me. I wish we would....to kinda feel like he wanted to make this effort as being friends, but I donno. I shouldn't keep assuming b.c I don't always seem to make the right assumptions. and really..if he says its weird...then I just odn't get it. Im sitting here making a effort and our short convos are great..what's weird? We're never gonna get over this "weirdness" if we dont make a effort to make an actual friendship! craziness I tell ya. But anyways...I just dont wanna think about this and I just wanna be over it lol. And I am...but just thinks pop in my head and you know how that goes. But anyways...enough about this....I gotta go study...one week ALMOST done and 5more to go woo hoo haha. love you all xo! If you read this far...thanks! :0

Leanna

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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2007|04:37 pm]
So...since everyone seems to be updating on their life....I Figured I would go with the flow lol.

what's new...um...we are moving down the road in the beginning of may. Like if you take the long way to my house and go around the circle...instead of turning on treasure island...u just keep going straight and im on there. I haven't seen the inside...just the outside...and the only thing that urkes my chicken is that the drive way is really narrow so you gotta park behind eachother and that is going to geto n my nerves having to move my car haha...but if that's my only complaint then i'm good. But another thing is that im really gonna miss coming home to the house I have lived in since 5th grade, I mean it would be nice coming home to my HOME...but oh well, I will adjust. soon enough I will be going to NC to go "home" lol. That's gonna stink...but hey...I am going to be making a life of my own...which by the way...NICOLE VOTH..im super happy for you and your new house and job..woo hoo!!

Um...Oh I talked to justin today and it was a GREAT convo...I love when we have just good conversations. I called him yesterday to figure out his shoe size lol...and he was callling me back...but we talked about exams and school and whatever.  So ya.

I am takign micro in the summer...that's gonnabe my WHOLe LIFE for 6 weeks...woooo hoo..blah! and um...then the second half of summer i am studying for my HESI test for nursing school...and im super super stoked about that...not about studying..but nursing school.

For real...like I am getting REALLY excited about becoming a nurse practitioner. Lately, I just wanna be filled with information about nursing...I really wanna LEARN and be able to help people and know what I'm doing. I cant even wait.

So...I can't complain...life is rolling on and I'm enjoying the ride...

love you all!! Jhely i will miss you!! and yay for heather and victoria secrets....hook up a bra for the bestie!? ;-) lol xo!
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2007|09:27 pm]
Wow..its been a while!! and i'm here just to vent b/c I realized how much LJ helps when u just wanted to get things out. 

So....Im soo sick of this justin thing, I feel like I try so hard to get to that point to be friends and to care for eachother and friends and make effort to be friends. and I realized that what we did wrong was try to be friends RIGHT AWAY and we both needed space before trying to be friends again, and we did that...from like thanksgiving until xmas and it worke dout alright. but now...i have some to realize that we pretty much never talk. since spring break i wrote him a facebook comment to say hey and then yesterday we talked and said happy easter. and before spring break i dont think we talked much either. Oh, I donno. the point is that it just really sucks that things couldn't work out the way we hoped. I mean maybe things will be diff when i'm up there since we will be in the same apartment complex or whatever...but the fact that we are doens't totally excited me it's can make us or break us. and by that i mean it would help us be better friends or it may just hurt us. well correction..hurt me...but i thik i would take it harder seeing him with another girl then i think he would seeing me with another guy. and that's just the problem....why can't it be kinda hard for him too?? i mean i would never wish anything horrible upon him, but what i mean is to feel some thing?? I mean how do you go 2 1/2 years with being in love with eachother and seeing eachother as perfection and then see me with another guy an dnot have ANY feeling? not that that has happened...but if it did. and I mean I know what its like to be interested in other guys...I've come acorss really nice guys...but i dont want a relationship or anything..i like friendships..b/c guy friends are great! I am just so frustrated b/c we both have gone our different ways which was bound to happen and now it just sucks to realize it. I mean I do miss him...but I miss the Justin I knew. ya, I get to see that Justin one on one and when im haning out with his family...but other times I dont even know the kid, and im sure he may feel that way with me too. but i try me hardest to be happy and friendly...and im not putting on an act...but im trying to make is as comfortable as posssible to get into the "groove" lol of being good friends. I mean i know he would be there for me and i would be there for him too...but i dont just wanna go to him when i have a problem..i wanna be able to have random conversations like we used to and tell the most random stories...but now it seems that the conversations we do have are like hows school. what's new, meeting new people...and that's about it. for the most part. maybe i'm not giving it all the credit...but really..im sooo over this lol. Im ready to be a nurse...start living in a new place and making soooo many new friends and hopefulyl down the road we will get to a point of true friendship! so that's my venting...and dont get me wrong...that kid will always have a place in my heart, he's shown me soo much and I have much respect for him, but things are different now and I accept that. i wish nothing but the best for him and with his personality, he will do what it takes to get on top lol. anyways..peace out!
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STOKED!!!! [Feb. 10th, 2007|05:52 pm]

I signed my lease for an apartment today....well a town house!!!

It's call The University Club!!! and I happened to find 2 other roomies that me and julie needed. The craziest sotry...they were there when i was looking for a place that needed 2 roomates and i asked if there were looking for 2 and i told them i was too! and we taalked and they were super cute..they are incoming freshman...but they seemed awesome. and they are sending in their paper work tomorrow...and me and julie sined our lease today! ahh!!

and i'm having sooo much fun here....i cant wait to get here and go to school and go to the games and meet people. woop woop!!

the only thing that sucks is that the move in date is aug 25th and school starts the 28th! 3 days to get everything together...grrrr. 

but ohhh welll....its exciting...

but i want all of you to come visit!!!!!! love you!!!
here's the web site if you wanna look...
http://www.universityclubtownhomes.com/templates/template_acc_cento/default.asp?w=universityclubtallahassee&c=ach.onesite.realpage.com&e=1054259&s=1120479&t=template_acc_cento


xoxox!!

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WWOOOO HHOOO [Feb. 7th, 2007|08:29 am]

I am officially a SEMINOLE!!!!   By the time I actually get there though I will have applied for the actual Nursing School and should know by mid November whether I got into that...if not...that's too far ahead to think about....I'll get there

But im just soo excited b/c I have my OWN college and can wear the shirts and sweaters and actually be going there!!! and ahhh I just can't wait!! ya ya..IRCC but that's not the same....this is a REAL college haha..if that makes sense! 

YYAAYY!!!



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blah!!! [Jan. 16th, 2007|04:56 pm]
Hola!! So....these past 2 days have not been great. I have a stomach virus...so I think. 

I was in bed ALL day yesterday, no lie....I went into the kitchen once, and got up to go to the bathroom lol. and that's about it.

I took a shower this morning...and am more than sure I fainted. I got dizzy and I couldn't see and then I remember waking up on the shower floor. But I'm not quite sure if I was already sitting....but my elbow has a cut on it and is kinda bruised so I'm guessing I did. 

So, this pretty much sucks. 

But enough about that.....school is going pretty well....I really need to get on the ball with doing work. I am reading for my world religion class now, and then I have more reading to do...JOY!!

So....I hope everyone is doing GREAT!! Love you all!! xoxo!!
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School [Jan. 9th, 2007|09:29 pm]
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So far my classes are going well. I have one more class to go to tomorrow night, World Religion. Im excited about that one!

Monday I have AP II in the morning...and it was kind of intimidating bc it's on the main campus and there's about 35 kids in the class and I'm used to like 8-9?? hah!

Today, Tuesday, I had my 2 TV classes which weren't as bad as I thought. My Diet and Nutrition class seems kinda of challenging, but I'm excited to learn about that stuff and i REALLY like my personality class!!!

Tomorrow I have AP II and then the lab, which should be good. and then at night I have World REligion and then I get to go to my first COLLEGE sporting event. I'm going to the bball game!! WOOP! I can't wait...I hope it's exciting! lol.

So all in all..this is semester is going to be hard and I'm not doing too well but not reading yet and procrastinating...but it's b/c I have 4 hours to kill tomorrow, so I'm going to the Library to do all my work..woop! Well...Good luck guys and lets do a girls night soon!! I MISs YOU ALL!!

Nicole....I love you and I think you should stick it out for ONE more semester and get through the year and then see how it goes from there. I know it's hard, but if you come back you're gonna have to leave again some time or another...but yes you will be here for a yer or so and then might be ready...but I think you should stick it out this semester and then if you really don't like it then you can start a fresh year here!! But i love ya and good luck! xoxo!

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(no subject) [Dec. 24th, 2006|10:57 pm]
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I hope all your christmas wishes come true.

And don't forget the reason for the season!

xoxo!
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HAHAH!! [Dec. 22nd, 2006|11:19 am]
[mood | amused]

So....I went outside to go see if my camera was in my car. and b4 I went out my mom says " well make sure not to roll your windows down" and I was like huh..why not? and she's like "the film has to set on your windows" and I was like what film?? ...they got my windows tinted and they apparently showed me yesterday..but I don't remember that AT ALL! lol. oh geez...craziness!
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(no subject) [Dec. 22nd, 2006|11:07 am]
hey hey!!

so...i got my wisdom teeth out yesterday and it pretty much sucks. Pretty much everything I had eaten I have thrown up and my mouth hurts on a off. and I look like a chipmunk...no lie! but other than that..im good!

Chia...I hope you are doing well...you're recovery is longer than mine so I wish you lots of luck and I love ya!

Nicole I hope you feel better soon!! xoxo!

So I got a 3.76 for this semester...i'm super proud of myself. and my overall GPA is a 3.52. sO, i think I gotta get a 4.0 next semester to get up to a 3.7ish. which is what a REALLY need for nursing school...hello books, good bye life!

Well...i can't wait until the 27th..it better still be going on!?

I hope you ALL have a MERRY CHRISTMAS! And I love you all!! xoxo!
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(no subject) [Dec. 20th, 2006|05:01 pm]
Wisdom teeth out tomorrow...wish me luck! :)
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2006|09:09 pm]
So...I think this pretty much sums it up...:)

"To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."
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Changes!! [Nov. 27th, 2006|05:44 pm]
[mood | cheerful]

Life....

Justin and I are just friends and nothing more....and I'm ok with that....It's in God's hands....

I have amazing friends and unfortunately I have just started to realize that more and more...

My parents are AMAZING and I love them....

I am excited about probably going to FSU in the fall and starting my life somewhere else....

School is crazy and I have so much to do, with so little time....

I love my Church family and my youth group ROCKS....

I love God and he is my savior....

Life has its ups and downs...but as long as I can make the best out of everything then I'm good...

So...my advice...don't feel sorry for yourself all the time and everytime you do, think of all the GOOD things in your life...b/c you have A LOT of things to be thankful for...

I love you all!!!!! Lets hang out ASAP!! :):)...Girls night WHAT?!?

xoxoxo!!
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NEWS! [Nov. 22nd, 2006|10:14 am]
SO....last night I applied to FSU.....for Fall....If I get in....I'm off to be a Seminole baby!

:)
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Love= GRR! [Oct. 31st, 2006|05:52 pm]
So....I finally got to telling Justin that I didn't think it was a good idea that we talked all the time and that it hurt me too much! and he totally understood and was kinda thinking the same thing. That we are doing so good with becoming friends...but we still talk on the phone everyday and blah blah. So..that was a hard conversation me crying and actually snapping into reality and realizing that I may never Kiss him again or be in a relationship with him. My first break up with my First love.

I heard about these all the time and just didn't understand it at all! But i'm strong. I just have to realize that I'm doing what i'm supposed to do with life. I have a loving family, loving friends, im in school, have 2 jobs(making money), working towards a career. I am active with my youth group which I love soo much, getting involved more in church. I mean I have so much to be thankful for but I swear I'm bipolar. One minute I can be soo happy and think I could probably do anything! and then I snap into this depression mode and think too much. Who the hell knows! All I know is that I have to learn to move on and realize that there is sOOO much out there. I can do ANYTHING...I can go ANYWHERE! Like seriously..have you ever thought of that...I just never really thought about what I can do with my life. I've just always thought about here and what I know is here.

So anyways...right now I'm trying my best to be a happy person..I realized I am happy when I'm around friends and happy people! So I love you all!!

xoxo
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(no subject) [Oct. 27th, 2006|01:53 pm]
I got a halloween costume...I'm going to be "Miss Dorothy" From the Wizard of Oz!! It's super cute..and comfy and kinda sexy lol. So i'm excited!!
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Hey hey [Oct. 25th, 2006|10:30 pm]
Hey all!!

So this week has been pretty good. I spent a good part of it freaking out about my AP test and ended up getting a B! The best I have done so far! So that's that and now it's nice not to have a burden of studying and everyting on my shoulders. But now I gotta get going on the next chapters!

So...this weekend is packed! Friday night I am doing a girls night and hopefully that will be fun. COME!!! and then sat. I work and then Sat. night I have a halloween party and then Sunday I am going fishing and then sunday night I have a halloween party!! WOOP!!

But that's about it. But ya know...Talking to Justin sometimes just bummes me out. Like I seem to always have so much to say and I mean it's not his fault he doens't have all the info to tell me but I just wish sometimes that he would dominate the conversation. But we've talked about it and I know he's not a phone talker, but I just feel like we're growing apart. Like we can't keep a really close friendship b.c im not there or he's not here to hang out in person with eachother. and right when I think im doing well and ok with everything something triggers something and I just get bummed! And I just wish this would be easier Sometimes I just don't wanna talk to him b/c then I just wouldnt hear him and ugh. I hate this. I just wanna get to that point where everything is totally fine!!

Oh and then...I found out that UF doesn't have a spring admission for nursing. So I can't apply there for Spring! And I believe a few others dont. but 2 of the people I need tot alk to are on vaca until next week! I just hope things work out! I just wanted a lot of schools to apply to so I didn't end up getting screwed! But whatever. Things will work out sooner or later!

So back to happy thoughts...this weekend will be fun and I get the house to myself! So that's nice! Well love you all xoxo!
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yo yo yo ! [Oct. 19th, 2006|08:37 am]
Life is pretty good right now...I can't complain!

I am going to be a volunteer at the volunteer medical clinic. I'm going to go on Mon and Wed for about an ahour and a half beofre class. And I get to shadow a nurse Practitioner!!! I have to go to an orientation at the hospital and get a cool badge. Ya..pretty sweet! lol.

In Creative thinking we watched this movie...Bowling for Columbine. It is really good! It really makes you think and makes you aware of the world around you. IF you ever get a chance to watch it...you def. should!

Im going to Orlando this weekend for a bachlorette party!It's gonna be fun!! We are going to Pleasure Island and out to eat and shopping... just having a good time. No strippers...i guess we'll just have to deal with it..JK!!!

So life is pretty good..and then next weekend my parents leave and I am thinking about doing a Scavenger hunt party...if you wanna come ask me about it!!! And then I have a halloween party!!! and then I might be going fishing on sunday!!

Nicole you're coming home!! YAY!! I can't wait!!

Love you all! xoxo!
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Life update! [Oct. 10th, 2006|08:37 pm]
So....it's been a while.

Lets see...School is going well, I had my 2nd lab practical and I think I did pretty well. I did a presentation in Creative thinking on Gay Marriages and I think I pretty much sucked!! I really didn't take the time to write my paper well...so I gotta make up for it in the next 2. Math is ok...my first test is on Tuesday, So I need to review for that! and then College computing..is just nothing lol.

Justin came home this weekend and it was fun. We got to hang out and just talk and I love hanging out with him and his family. I love them! I will admitt it was hard with him being here...I just wanna learn to "let go" and I know that I won't fully do it until he makes the next step, or I think I'm ready to go on. I'm not looking for a relationship at all this year or anyone to hook up with. I go one day at a time and I'm not out there looking for anyone. The STUPIDEST thing ever though...is that I just never changed my status and today I did it..and for some crazy reason I got really nervous and my heart started to pound really fast. I mean, it's stupid myspace but whatever. That's over with.

So...Im really trying to concentrate on school and do as well as I can!!! And I'm going to the gym more and actually excited about going. I gotta keep this up. The only thing is that I'm not doing well with saving my money with so many things coming up! AHH! So I gotta work on that.

Well I hope everyone is doing well!!! I love you all xoxoxo!!!!
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2006|01:45 pm]
So...it's been a long time...geez! I like this new LJ set up though lol. But anways...School is pretty good. I took my first AP test and got a 76%...which i said I would be happy with, but the test wasn't as hard as i thought, but I am happy with it..considering I thought I would get like a 50%!! On a better note...I got a 100% on my freakin AP LAB!!!!! I was soo excited. I love getting good grades b/c then it makes me more energetic to study and do well hah. 

Life in general is pretty good...i like our girls nights...they are fun!!!! :) Starting this weekend I am "babysitting" for a week. I wouldn't exactly call it that...but she's in 9th grade, one of the ldawyers daughters and him and his wife are going away so I am watching her, taking her places, making srue everything gets done...just being a "mom" I guess? lol. But I hope I get good money....but I am really excited about it! Our own house..that is NICE and she seems really nice and fun, kinda quiet, but I will fix that lol. So that's my future week as of now.

TODAY is my dad's birthday!!! And Sunday is my moms birthday!!! WOOP!! They are no where near excited lol. 

So..that's my life in a nutshell :-/  Love you all xoxoxxoxo!!!!
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